This is Grad School?

     So I'm in my fifth week of grad school, and I don't know if I'm getting ahead of myself or what, but I'm really not that stressed yet.  That will probably change after my first test Wednesday ;-) I also don't really feel that homesick, although some relationships have been tested since my time here.  I struggle with showing my emotions, and showing that I do need help even if I'm 1000 miles away from the only home I've ever known.  As much as I am trying to acclimated to Lubbock, I'm not sure if it will ever feel like home, and that somewhat frustrates me.  I'm going to be spending a lot of time here over the next 20 months, and I want to feel at home.  I'm trying to volunteer more, and I think that will help.  I guess I just thought I'd be more consumed with grad school, but that's not turning out to be the case.  That, or I'm just really getting used to stress, overachievers, etc.

     I've been in clinic two times so far, and I start at a private school tomorrow.  I really like being with clients, and I am excited to learn more in class so I can provide better therapy for them.  I guess it's just really weird being able to treat clients already!  They must have a lot more faith in us than I do.  I have no doubt in my mind that Lubbock is exactly where God wanted me, despite how random it might have seemed at the time.  I am proud to be at Texas Tech, it's a really good school and I know I am getting a good education.  I am so thankful to have this opportunity.  I get to follow my dreams and have an adventure at the same time, not many people get to do that.

     I've been cross stitching dang bambi for the whole time I've been here, I really want to just get it finished!  I would just move to my next project, but then I know bambi will never get finished, because I have a tendency to give up on projects that annoy me.  So bambi it is until that little deer gets done.

     Goals for the upcoming weeks: take deep breaths, discover more in Lubbock, follow my heart, be happy.  I think that's pretty lofty goals for the time being, I've been struggling a bit.  I'm not quite sure what's going on, but I just need to breathe.  And hope that dang West Texas dust doesn't get in my mouth ;-)